Darla,

This isn’t off topic at all! Thank you for sharing your rainy day and procrastination story. I love how you show the hurt and struggle and fear and, in the end, come to confession, gratitude and renewal.

(I’d think maybe you’ve been peeking into my prayer journals, but I see them still sitting on my book shelf, so I guess not : )

I am the great procrastinator. I will always put off until tomorrow what I do not want to do today, so much so that’s its overwhelming when I go to finally get it done. I am not talking laundry or the dishes, the simple things for me I am talking the big things that are hard for me to do like vacuuming and mopping, the bathrooms and the closets. The simple things are almost routine for my body but the chores that take extra effort are just awful for me to do. The pain I endure for several days after completing the hard tasks is often hard to deal with.

I am finding this true of conversations that are necessary to have with my kids now that I am getting older. Organizing the paperwork, making the wills, the trust details, just the things that, now that we are in this stage of life, we have to deal with if we want everyone that is left here to be okay. But I wonder, am I leaving enough, did I do enough everyday or did I procrastinate in this area also?

I too have been suffering from the rainy day blues. The kids did not come over because they do not like to go out in the rain. My oldest granddaughter does not like to drive in the rain. So since they can not come over there are no cookies, or hot chocolate to share no stories by the fire, just a depressing gray to everything.

It’s in that gray I am reminded to be faithful, to read my Bible, but as a human I do not want to. I want to give in to the gray day, the sad mood, the emptiness, so I do until I have procrastinated in my faith and my Bible reading and just given in to life.

Then the sun comes out and the guilt and the sense of loss is so acute I can not enjoy the sun until I go outside and sit in the glory of his creation and soak up the sun and pour my heart out in apology to my Father, my Savior.

God thank you for the sun, the rain, the gray and the sunny. Thank you for allowing us to be human and have the emotions and the good days and the bad for all of it reminds us we are alive and there is work to do and I need to stop procrastinating and get it done.

Not exactly your topic but it was what came into my heart when I read your piece.

I love that story about your grandma, Richie. Thanks for sharing!

Oh, I love that, Carol! Somehow it’s always such an encouragement to know someone else is making those kinds of trusting and renewing decisions. And I love that “come aside and rest awhile” verse, too.

Thank you!